So, everyone knows about the movie that came out last weekend. A woman learns how guys "work," and how all these "mixed signals" is just a guy saying that he's not interested. She learns that there people who are products of the rule and exceptions.
How do you know whether you're the rule or the exception? Obviously because it was a chick flick, the main character ended up being the exception, big surprise. But we aren't all the exceptions in life. I dated someone a couple years ago and they broke my heart, multiple times. I know that he is a good person and so I held on, he asked me to wait and I did. I thought that this was the person I was going to spend the rest of my life with. I had faith that he would pull through; that he would turn around and sweep me off my feet.
And somehow, I end up in the same situation. I have someone in my life that cares about me and is someone that I care very much about as well. Yet, we can't be together. Is this situation so different than the first? I keep telling myself it is, that we are meant to be together but if we were, wouldn't we be? Even though we are no longer together, I have this connection with him. We can spend time together and it's like we've never been apart. I can't even describe it.
I trust him, which is a big deal, I trust very little.
I don't trust a lot of people so is trusting him a huge mistake? And what am I trusting him with?
The Compromise. It seems that I am getting nothing out of this compromise. I am the one worrying that I talk too much, that I am getting in the way of his life. I am the one concerned that I'm just going to get more hurt. And I think the only time I feel good about this situation is when I pretend to ignore it. Which is not right on any level.
I think the only thing different about this situation is that I'm letting my heart break slower than before.
I may not cry over him but it doesn't mean I'm not breaking inside.
So, is he just not into me? I seriously do NOT understand guys. How can you say that you care so deeply about someone and that you don't want to see them hurt yet hurt them in the worst way possible.
Obviously, I have no idea what to do. How can I care about someone so much that breaks my heart yet being with him makes me feel so incredibly happy?
Is this love? Haha, something that makes you so happy and so sad at the same time?
Regardless, I'm going to live my life. I'm going to spend time with the people I KNOW make me the exception; I know who truly loves me and that's what really matters.
I know how to prioritize my life and although I won't forget about this moron, I won't dwell on him either because I love myself more than that.
I never know if my blogs actually make sense or not, *shrug shoulders*
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