Life

Firstly, it is slightly depressing that this "blogspot" website shows you how many followers you have for you blog. Sadly, I have one! Haha, but I don't really mind. I've had some issues with blogs lately, I find that people are using blogs to desperately attempt to force their messages upon other individuals. In my opinion (no one has to take me seriously, nor do they often), blogs are something for your own personal gain. It allows you to get what is on your chest... Off. It allows you to portray this message with the potential of someone else reading it, not necessarily agreeing with it, but listening and maybe gaining a different perspective. But mainly, I believe "blogging" is for your own mental health really. Writing and expressing your feelings, even if no one is listening, and in my case, my one follower;), this has been proven time and time again to be "therapeutic." So, I will say what I wanna say, when I wanna say it. And it doesn't bother me if anyone reads my message or gets something out of it because in the aspect of my life, I'm selfish, this is for me.

So, like any other student, money has become a number one priority in my life. Unfortunately. I hate it when people complain about money and financial situations all the time and I'm afraid I have no choice but to be that person I hate. But, I hate that something bigger than me legitimately scares me. And I hate that because I try so hard not make money a number one worrisome issue in my life. I believe that you can live a good life without drowning in money. But, it is just so frustrating when I work so hard, 20 hours a week hard, plus school, plus a life... And I'm still so far behind. But then again, it's just who I am, I am not living in constant fear that I won't be able to afford rent or food (yet), but it worries me that my savings account is the lowest its been in a long time. I am the kind of person that saves ... A LOT. Haha, and to see that balance drop... To not have tuition money saved up, it IS scary. And then, it boggles my mind that a lot of students that I know, don't even have a job for part of the year (which is what I have done for the past 2 years). And it makes me question my saving skills, am I really as good as I thought? I hate the way money makes me feel. I think I may go live in the woods with the animals... ?

Now, something that has been bothering me for a while... And I don't even know how to start to get this off my chest. It has been something that I have pushed down and ignored for quite some time and yesterday, it just hit me like a brick wall. I won't go into the details but it has everything to do with respect. I truly believe that people have lost all respect for other people. I constantly see people treating other people like absolute garbage. And I am a true believer that you have to have respect for yourself and that you need to be selfish in the sense that you need to make yourself happy. But, what about all the other people you influence? Every single person in your life are influenced by your actions and your words. I have just started a class on lifespan development and just in the first lecture, we discussed how infants and children react in their early stages of development and how that development affects their later year. When development first was researched, it was a firm belief that development only occurred in the early years. But now, it seems that throughout your entire life, it is your experiences that contribute to your development. Your experiences with other people, the actions and words of other people and yourself is what motivates you to be the individual you are. Of course, there are maaany factors that contribute to who you are, not only what I've just mentioned. But... I personally think that it is important part of being a human being to treat others with respect. Even if their a complete asshole, why shouldn't you treat them with even a little bit of respect? They are only human. We are all in the same world, we are all on the same level. Who says any one person is better than another?

Just a little bit of respect can go a long way.

Maybe I made sense, and maybe not.