Moron (July 2nd)

I seriously don’t understand you. I don’t, I cannot figure out what is going through your head. How can you say you care so much about a person and then just break them. You say you can see yourself being with me for the rest of you life yet, here we are; apart. It doesn’t make any sense. I tried so hard! And what was the point, you had it in your head this entire time that this wasn’t going to work. You had it in your head that the long distance was going to affect our relationship and that it was just going to fail. Like all the others. But you say that you’ve never felt this way about anyone else, so couldn’t this relationship be the one that you should have faith in? Just a little hope. But you can’t, as soon as things got difficult, you gave up… And I just don’t understand it. Everyday I was apart from you, it just made me want to see you more. And the days I was with you, they were just so worth it. I treasured every second I had with you and I know that it was hard but every touch, every hug and every kiss was so worth the time apart. I wouldn’t have given that up for the world, and apparently it wasn’t good enough for you. And you giving up, is maybe a good thing that I found out now. Because I’m glad that when the times got tough, you didn’t quit on me when, oh you know, you actually loved me. Because, really, why am I this upset about a guy who doesn’t try, says he cares about me but doesn’t put forth the emotion, and doesn’t love me. Why do I care?