Enough for a banana sandwich

Ya know, just grocery shopping before the big shopping extravanganza hits. At the grocery store, I picked up a bunch of bananas.

Amanda: "Hey Dad, is one enough?"

Dad: "No, grab 4 more"

*Amanda picks up 4 more bunches of bananas*

...Later at the checkout

Dad: "Those aren't all our bananas"

Amanda: "Yes they are"

Dad: "I said 4 more bananas, not 4 more BUNCHES of bananas"

The end result, my friends, 28 bananas. Oops.

Separation

Okay- so we are all afraid of being alone. Whether you admit it or not, everyone has that feeling once in their lives. But for most of us, more than once.
This is not personal but... I just do not understand why people have to be with their significant other every single day. I just do not understand. And it's not like I haven't been in love and wanted to see someone every single day but... I just didn't. To me, that is what marriage is for. Marriage means that person is your very best friend, your companion, is their for you, your support- 100%.
But... if you're dating- I don't see the point. There are so many other things... and other people in your life. When I was with someone this past summer, I saw him all the time, he was 2 minutes away from my work. But, it was not everyday and trust me, I was at work everyday. I made sure that I was with my friends that I didn't get to see all the time. I can remember him getting upset that I went out with my friends when he had assumed that we would be hanging out... And, it just threw me off because... These are my friends.
Right now- They are my 100%

"Buddy"

There is no other person on this entire planet that frustrates me as much as you do.
Seriously, you are such an idiot... You are so rude to everyone. Me and my friends so as I delete you out of my life, you get all "sensitive". You're an ass to me, why would I want to talk to you?
I'm not like all the other girls, I'm not going to just sit here and let you push me around. And it makes me laugh that you honestly thought that I would.
I can't even believe that you got all defensive when I called irritating, you're still undecided about if you like me or not.

Boys are such idiots.

S.H. (Thanks Gossip Girl)- Leave me alone "buddy". Oh and fuck you.

A bunch of crap.

Couples... Right now I hate them.
And maybe it's because I'm jealous
And maybe not...
But right now, I hate them.
Or as Loosa would say, "dislike"
I don't know why today but... I just don't think it's fair.
There are people out there that are in love with each other and they deserve it. There are also people out there who think they love each other but know that they don't. Yet, they stay together so that they won't be alone. And it's not fair, it's not fair because everyone deserves someone to be in love with. There are so many people patiently waiting for the "right" person. And we will wait because we won't settle for anything less, we shouldn't. Yet you do.

It's not fair because time always wins. Time is going to win this race and we're all gunna lose.

The Brain and Its Wonders...

Psychology.
Learning about the brain.
The communication within the brain, the neurons and all that stuff.
It just made me wonder... All this brain talk made me think what is wrong with all the people in this world. Like... what's wrong with your brain that makes you act so stupid?
Why would you put something in your body that could possibly kill you?
Why would you push away the one thing that makes you happy?
Why would you keep your feelings inside when someone makes you upset?
Why do you say things you don't mean?
What chemical inbalance in the brain causes people to act this way? A fucked up one most likely. I think that's what Mitterer has taught me.
But, whatever the reason, it doesn't make any sense to me.

Just Analyze.

Today is official Analyze Day. Today is the day that you can overanalyze anything you want. Today is the day that you are in another "zone", you are zoned right the fuck out. You can just think about pointless crap all day long.
I can think about boys... And how complicated this whole mess is. I can think about the fact that maybe I just want to be with you because there is no one else. And then I think about the times that we had... and the fact that I would wait a million years for you. I just don't want to make another mistake.
I can overanalyze about the people around me, and their relationships. I can think about how I just want you to be happy... And how I hate that you are miserable half of the time. I wish I could fix it but I can't, only you can.
I can think of my family... And how they don't hesitate to support each other during the hard times. They can just drop their lives and be there when you need them. And so for that, you better pull through this because people need you. You have so much to live for.

And because of today, I'm just gunna think, all day long.

"I must be dreaming again"

I have these perceptions in my mind about how things will pan out.
Except things never turn out the way I think they will.
So, either my perceptions are wrong... Or the world.
I vote the world.

I have always had a hard time expressing my feelings to people, that's just who I am. I have a hard time telling people that they have hurt me or have really pissed me off. I can barely cry without laughing, just to ease the seriousness.
So, my personal skills are lacking but... I don't understand how other people can be so oblivious to other people and how they feel. I care a lot about the people that are close to me and to see them upset makes me upset as well. And it hurts me because I can't fix it.

I wish I could that I don't care about anyone. But I can't.

I might not ever tell you how much you pissed me off, I will probably just let it slide. Maybe next time you hurt me, I'll let you know. Maybe not. But for now,

YOU HURT ME.

Puppy

Today, the Parker girls bought a bunny, a very handsome cuddly bunny:)
I am sooo happy, I haven't been this happy in a while.
Pets just haven't been working out for me that past year so I am so excited to have a new one:)
He is brown and small and so so cute!
We set up his cage today and he loves to slide around in it.

And for the first time in a while, I love a boy
A boy bunny!
Haha stinky boys.

Hurray for bunnies! (named puppy!)

<3

"Fuck You Jordan"

So, today I am Jordan. The fucking idiot. The idiot that thought everything could go back to the way things were. WRONG. I thought that I could apologize for being such an idiot and everything would be okay. I would confess my love to you and we would be okay, we would be together again. I was so so wrong. I know that it is different and I can tell that your feelings for me have changed, it's nothing like it was before. But.. you won't say it, just let me go. Don't drag it out because it's just gunna hurt more in the end.

I don't know what to say about your parents either. I have no words for you. I have no comforting phrases to express. I don't know how to help you. I know that I am going to disagree with you in this entire situation.. and I don't want to, I don't want to talk about it. I'm afraid that we are going to fight and drift even further apart, if that's even possible. I just don't want to lose you again. But I think our time has already past.

And it breaks my heart.

Cellulars

Okay- so I totally understand how people cannot live without their cell phones. I understand that. But seriously, can you lay off it for like 2 fucking seconds?
Here I am, just studying my heart away like every other person in this oh so lovely window building...
Ring Ring Ring
Okay- so someone gets a phone call, I can accept that.
They hang up.
Ring Ring Ring
12 times. 12 times that this person's cell phone rang. 12 friggin times. 12?!
Okay, maybe I would be able to tolerate this person if the conversations were actually important
"Oh hey Sam, you're bored? Aaawww"
WHAT THE HELL?! Shut up- there are people trying to study while you are chit chatting (chat chitting?) with your buddy Sam, laughing your stupid head off.
I don't want to hear about your life so,
Shut up.
Omg- it just rang AGAIN! 13.

The First Time

So, I would first like to thank Nelle for inspiring me to create my own blog. I would also like to thank you for posting a blog about how you love convincing me to go out on a Thursday night when I have class 9 am on Fridays. Thank you, really.

Hahahaha.

I used to have a blog and it was basically just me bitching about my life, so I deleted it eventually. But fuck that, I miss all my complaining. Just kidding, hopefully I will bring a little more insight and perhaps intelligence into my renewed blogging experience.

That's all for now.